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" I don't know anything... but now I Know I don't know anything" Ebenezer Scrooge
In the final chapter of "A Christmas Carol", we see Scrooge return home. We see him embody the spirit of innocence, of unknowing. We experience his great joy of finding home, of finding his true voice. We celebrate with him and we reconnect with home in our own hearts. The courage and willingness to disbelieve our own perceptions and to be humbled by our own misapprehensions is the gift and grace of abiding Spirit. Embodied and Incarnate....it is with us always.
December 18, 2020: Don't "Scrooge" Yourself
Scrooge was stingy. We can all be stingy with ourselves and each other. The traumas from our past can leave us with walls and blocks that prohibit us from feeding our own soul and nurturing others. We, like Ebenezer, have learned neglect. The spirit's invitation is to not look away but rather to look deeper..... To bravely welcome our past hurts, shames and disillusionments. Then the gifts of mercy and compassion can unwrap and make new, our true legacy of love.
December 10, 2020: Bah Humbug
In the “Christmas Carol”, Charles Dickens gives us not just a story but a narrative of awakening. His genius was in showing us what is required to make peace with ourselves and with our lives. We must walk with our ghosts, redeem our past, set our place at the table with all our failures and inevitably embrace the vulnerability of our own death. In this way, the wisdom of the heart can claim what has been held hostage by our unattended sorrows and trauma. Just as Scrooge woke to a new world, we too are invited, even compelled to enter into our own ghosts of Christmas past, present and future. Why wait? We all know how the story ends and it’s no Bah Humbug after all. It is life with all its glory, mercy and love.
November 27, 2020: Breaking the Bondage to Competency
Our culture has required, if not demanded, a level of competency from us. This is part of our inheritance from our hard-fought beginnings on this continent. We cling to our self-reliance and our need to master the environment around us. We reject our perceived weaknesses, our frailties and even our most human desire to need one another. Ultimately, we are enslaved by our own "addiction to competency". When life shows us how little control we have, we shun our broken hearts. Let's bring this broken heartedness to the table. Let's embrace our vulnerability and allow the heart to break us open to who we truly are.
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November 13, 2020: Burnout is a Messenger from the Soul
We don't often think of ourselves as burned out. More often our survivors go down the suffering rabbit hole of self-doubt, self-criticism and even self-hatred. Simply put, burnout happens when our natural capacity to move through stressors and to cycle through our emotions gets stuck! We are exhausted and can blame life but mostly ourselves. We first begin by recognizing and welcoming this state of being to our table.... and not just our table. We begin by co-creating a place of safety to allow this release and relaxation into our everyday life with those around us. Let's not deny and fool ourselves into self-reliance and isolation. It is so ... Self care happens together!
October 31, 2020: All Souls Invitation
We are all too often convinced of our own unworthiness and in turn, turn away from our wholeness… from the wholeness of all life. Death is the invitation to see deeper into the truth of who we are…. to see life as it is. This dissolution reveals the eternal fullness of life, offers us forgiveness and reconciliation with all we have tried and failed to banish from our grieving heart. We welcome all loves lost, loves wounded and loves redeemed to our Soul’s table. In this abides a radiance that has never been harmed…that has never been lost.
October 24, 2020
As we continue exploring disillusionment, I call upon one of my heroes Poet William Stafford. He invites us to see what is truly present and to be present when all is said and done; when all the leaves have fallen. When we have to let go or we are given the gift of failure that requires a "dropping away".... when surrender is not a choice but rather a sacred encounter... what remains?
October 10, 2020
Many of us are experiencing deep disillusionment with life and ourselves. Disillusionment is quite possibly the most powerful and profound experience we can be given. We can no longer hold onto our story: our own narratives of who we are and what we have believed life to be. This "fierce grace" can be devastating. It is meant to be. We are invited to give up our hopes and dreams and to allow ourselves to surrender to something deeper, something more eternal than our personal identity and ideas. When we no longer try to control or resist ourselves and life, we then become available to the reality of Faith that is emergent and present in our lives all the time. Let's imagine what we might discover!
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August 22nd, 2020
Suzanne is taking time to rest and renew. She welcomes you to message her with any questions or topics you may have for further conversations. She asks you to take comfort in the quieting natural world, the lengthening hours of darkness and the melancholy of the autumnal splendour. She will see you in September!
August 15th, 2020: Wisdom of the Heart
There is suffering in life. Life is not easy. It has never been easy. This is a fact isn't it? Yet. we are here. Sadly, it is our "unnecessary" suffering that can really uproot and destabilize our lives. This is a layer of suffering and pain that we add to our already weary and wounded hearts. The gravitational pull of this fear is powerful in our lives. Yet, the wisdom of the heart knows better...knows more intelligently and eternally what it is we really want. We have only to ask, to listen and to devote to it, little by little every day, every moment and even in the smallest of choices.
August 8th, 2020: Accepting our Naivete
We are all naive, at least sometimes. We can lack experience, wisdom and judgement in uncertain times. This is to be expected. We can't know what we don't know. We just can't! It's no fault of ours or of lifes in any way. Sometimes however, the stress can launch our "survivors" into the fray. They are ill-equipped, innocent and usually terrified. Our choices then become eclipsed by reactions informed by fear. We freeze, we flee, we faun and we fight. We all do this to ourselves and each other. We disconnect from life. We do however, have the moral courage and endurance to meet our naivete; to forgive it in ourselves and one another and to trust our ever-present capacity for freedom and joy!
July 11th, 2020: When to Stop Searching and Start Looking
Meaning is an illusive teacher. And, more often than not, we don't like what it is showing us. As we journey on the Hero's path, "meaning" in its wisdom, will show us life experiences we would rather forget. We would rather continue to exile those aspects of ourselves that have been hurt by others or have hurt others. Our Soul however, has another idea for us. It invites us to look deeper with its compassionate heart and find our birthright of redemptive love and ultimately Forgiveness.
June 27th, 2020: Finding Meaning in Between Worlds
We now find ourselves in another new landscape. Some of us are searching for a new port, some of us are trying to decide what to leave and what to take. But if our ultimate goal is personal happiness or success, then our searching and our suffering will never end. Instead we are being called to listen to the summons of our own Soul. It is 'meaning' that fulfills us, quickens our heart and brings aliveness to our awakened being.
June 13th, 2020: Anxiety, let's call it as it is!
Anxiety is a fluctuating state that can often overwhelm us. We often try to avoid it, manage it, resist it and sometimes, we are carried away by it. Anxiety is suffering! Because anxiety is fear of some future collapse, we are pulled away from ourselves and away from the present moment. Our bodies constrict, tighten and try to escape being here. We can be trapped by an illusory and fearful future as we try to escape an overwhelming and wounded past. This conflict "seemingly" takes us away from the peace and harmony of the present moment. Yet, this moment, this encounter with the Sacred, is eternally available to us. We have only to find our heroic courage to stop..... and have a look.
June 6th, 2020: The Gift of Failure
Failure is one of the most intelligent and effective gifts that can come our way. As we make our way on the hero's path, we are bound to be met (and often clobbered) by obstacles, fears and limitations. Sometimes, our greatest failures leave us speechless, undone and intensely vulnerable. There is wondrous wisdom at the heart of failure. As we try, try and try again to declare ourselves as someone or something special in the world, failure comes to wake us up. A sentinel of the soul, failure is there to invite us into remembering who we truly are. Our natural innocence and redemptive love find their way through the brokenness and we become better and better at failing.... at loving... at being Heroes.
May 22nd, 2020: Did You Ever Know You Were Your Hero?
The human Heart, our Heart, is large enough to hold whatever has threatened to destroy us. Over lifetimes and generations we have proven ourselves to be highly adaptive survivors. Much to our dismay however, all these exquisite strategies have not brought us to the promised land. We lament and grieve our somewhat un-lived life. As we are now in a collective "wilderness experience", we are asked to return to the Heart. Together, with courage and earnestness we access the wellspring of resilience. With deep listening we follow as we are guided out of the desert and on to the hero's path..... stepping into the fullness of our lives.
May 15th, 2020: Cultivating Courage
Cultivating courage in a time when that seems the last thing we’re inclined to be about.
May 9th, 2020: Checking in with your mental health?